probably not a shocker

ugh, i'm doing it...i'm blogging about guys going to strip clubs while they're on vacation. or really only one guy in particular but i'm going to try and stay as general as possible in this entry. (lol that didn't work! see below)

i'm no prude but it totally bugs me. and i'm not 100% sure what part of it bugs me the most. when i break the senario down into components, none of them seem all that terrible or off-putting. but when they're all together it's just like a bitchy girlfriend ON switch.

do i have a strong feelings when i think of a stripper probably all fit and sexy about 10 years younger than me? no. do i have a strong feeling about guys getting totally out of their minds drunk? noo. do i have strong feelings about debauchery/bachelor parties or vegas? again, no. but when you take all those things together and then stick my man in there....shit it just bugs me.

of course i realize i'm being that bitchy girlfriend and it's 2011 and everything sexual is supposed to be super blase. maybe i've just been burned and have zero trust on this particular topic. i give myself credit for being as easy going in a relationship as possible, not that it's done a whole lot for me, but still. i try and get worked up about shit that girls normally get all moody over but i really have trouble getting past the idea of a strippers naked ass all over my boyfriend.  it's just so personal. now for argument's sake i can see a guy saying that a girl going out and getting drunk and going dancing is like the same thing. but it's NOT. for real. sure guys tray and dance with you occasionally but he's not taking his pants off and siting me down so he can stick his business in my face. and i even like strippers...i honestly don't mind the thought of them and i like porn, so watching sexy shit is fine. i'd just like to be there.

i've never been jealous like this. i guess it means i'm really in love with my man and feel it would be the worst thing in the whole world if he cheated or messed around while he was away drinking with all the guys. i hate thinking about it and it makes me emotionally overwhelmed even thinking about it.... but i'm supposed to be being general and not making this a diary entry!! ARG!! drunk guys, please think of your girlfriends or wives... this is how their minds work when they know you're at strip clubs. even if they say it's not!