gggrrrrr

i am SO irritable today! i'd rather be doing anything else..but i'm pretty sure that even if i was doing something else i'd be wainting to do anything other than that. i don't feel good. i wish i was sleeping.

i want it and i want it bad

i'm having a very difficult time focusing today. i hate being patient and i hate being distracted at work. luckily the day is going by rather quickly.

for appearance's sake

do you ever get the feeling that people only say things because they think that's what's expected. I mean, I guess people do that ALL the time, but i was recently shopping with a (gay) friend of mine and in context of a discussion about my daughter, my ex came up. My friend right away is like...i know he's your ex, but he's still HOT. After I finished throwing up in my mouth a little, I pondered this comment. This friend of mine has never said anything like this about my ex before. I kind of got the feeling that he was only saying it because that's what gay guys are supposed to say about their girl friend's exes. It just was so freaking weird. It could be that my friend isn't really around his straight friends/girl friends very often anymore and it's kind of something that's for show. who knows...

hmmm

so i have this new last name and new email but my blog is associated with my old email. i can't switch it over. I will lose my blog posts. that means i have to maintain both accounts/names. this is annoying to me.